So I figured I'd get this out of the way now so when the day actually came I wouldn't be moping around all depressed like I was when I came home. For those of you who know me, the 1 year mark of me being discharged from the USAF is fast approaching and I honestly don't want it to be here. When July 2nd rolled around last summer, I didn't have time to think "ooo, a year ago today I left for my dream" because I was working and preparing to get slammered (that's slammed and hammered at the same time! =3) in two days at the pool. But this date is different.
Sunday will be one year since I left the Air Force. I have cried, I have picked myself up out of the ashes of what was left of my dignity and self confidence, and once again I am the strong Airman I was a year ago. Mind you I still hate being a civilian, but life is starting to treat me better. For the first time in over a year I am not in pain when I pick up a child or even Frankie (mom's little mini-wiener.). For the first time I can plan and predict my future. For once I can make my own decisions instead of having someone tell me when to breathe, how to walk, or how fast to eat.
Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my training, but then I notice all the small quirks that will never leave me. Like standing at attention when I speak to someone of higher authority... (Pete laughs at me all the time for this.) So I guess I can move on and try to get back in. My shoulder is doing fine. I actually gained 40 degrees ROM since Friday, so I'm proud of that. As soon as I'm allowed to swim, I'm going to start training again so when it's time to go back in, I'll be at 200%. In the mean time, I'll be just fine hanging out with friends.
I do want to have a shout out to "The Cold Soul" and "Air Guard Spouse" for watching my sometime totally inactive blog. =3 I'm surprised you guys even bothered. And "The Cold Soul"? I don't know how it's going to go for you, but the small amount of time I was in the Air Force, it was the best time of my life. I will never ever regret signing away my life to the best branch of the military. If you ever want to contact me via messengers (I have AIM and MSN) don't hesitate. I don't bite.... hard... HAHA!!
Duces.
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now heres a suggestion from your mom! Go back and re-read what you just posted. Better yet, let me show you:
>>and once again I am the strong Airman I was a year ago. Mind you I still hate being a civilian, but life is starting to treat me better. For the first time in over a year I am not in pain when I pick up a child or even Frankie (mom's little mini-wiener.). For the first time I can plan and predict my future. For once I can make my own decisions instead of having someone tell me when to breathe, how to walk, or how fast to eat. <<
Life goes on, new dreams appear and are achievable. Even if they resemble your old dreams
Dont be sad on the 15th- be happy that you have almost completed your first year in college, fixed your shoulder, bought your own car, and that you are making fun plans for the upcoming months.
AF-ROTC will be here soon enough, this is your time to play! love you!
Bre...you are a brilliant young woman, who has experienced more; than many young people your age. The emotional growth your words emit, tell quite a story! For whatever reason...this is your path. Embrace the wonderful person you have become, as a result of this experience...
Please keep your heart, mind and eyes open...you just never know!
P.S. I love your blog layout (I chose the same!)
~AM
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