A day I cannot remember...

So I figured I'd get this out of the way now so when the day actually came I wouldn't be moping around all depressed like I was when I came home. For those of you who know me, the 1 year mark of me being discharged from the USAF is fast approaching and I honestly don't want it to be here. When July 2nd rolled around last summer, I didn't have time to think "ooo, a year ago today I left for my dream" because I was working and preparing to get slammered (that's slammed and hammered at the same time! =3) in two days at the pool. But this date is different.

Sunday will be one year since I left the Air Force. I have cried, I have picked myself up out of the ashes of what was left of my dignity and self confidence, and once again I am the strong Airman I was a year ago. Mind you I still hate being a civilian, but life is starting to treat me better. For the first time in over a year I am not in pain when I pick up a child or even Frankie (mom's little mini-wiener.). For the first time I can plan and predict my future. For once I can make my own decisions instead of having someone tell me when to breathe, how to walk, or how fast to eat.

Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my training, but then I notice all the small quirks that will never leave me. Like standing at attention when I speak to someone of higher authority... (Pete laughs at me all the time for this.) So I guess I can move on and try to get back in. My shoulder is doing fine. I actually gained 40 degrees ROM since Friday, so I'm proud of that. As soon as I'm allowed to swim, I'm going to start training again so when it's time to go back in, I'll be at 200%. In the mean time, I'll be just fine hanging out with friends.

I do want to have a shout out to "The Cold Soul" and "Air Guard Spouse" for watching my sometime totally inactive blog. =3 I'm surprised you guys even bothered. And "The Cold Soul"? I don't know how it's going to go for you, but the small amount of time I was in the Air Force, it was the best time of my life. I will never ever regret signing away my life to the best branch of the military. If you ever want to contact me via messengers (I have AIM and MSN) don't hesitate. I don't bite.... hard... HAHA!!

Duces.

Midnight Fires

So I've been wanting to make this AMV (Anime Music Video) for the longest time. Ever since I got my hand on this awesome song. I won't say anymore other than I hope you all enjoy it and please please please comment. =3

I bleed orange and blue...

Okay, so this season wasn't that bad. A lot better than last season, but that's because I was home =3. ANYWAY, the last game of the season was between Denver and San Diego. Now, Cutler and what's-his-face hate eachother, I mean HAAAATE eachother. They talk smack all the time, and this game was no different. I can't tell you how many times I've almost seen a fight break out on the field because of something the other team says. But what happens on the field stays on the field, right? Apparently not...



I feel sorry for the guy! Talking smack is one thing, but the guy didn't deserve to get beat up. The Broncos just lost! Isn't that a hard enough hit? Apparently not... What do you guys think?

To welcome the new year

As the New Year rolls ever so closer, It's time to think about the past and the future.

This time last year, I was on leave with my shoulder, but I was happy because I was in the Air Force and I knew that I was making Mom and Dana proud. And then February happened and all went downhill.

Now that I'm getting my life back, it's time to get myself back up to Air Force standards. I know it sounds too early to be thinking about this (I still have 4 years left of schooling), but I need to be able to meet the basic standards so I won't have any trouble going into ROTC. What does this mean for me? Lose weight, start exercising again, and fix my shoulder.

I already have my exercise planned out for the next two months. Something that I can stick to and won't have a problem doing. Something I can do in the middle of work and school. I'm kinda proud of myself. There's very few things that I've stuck to. I guess when it comes to the Air Force, I just really want it.

Anyway, a few of my friends are gonna be doing it with me, so I'm excited. At least I won't be doing it alone. And as much as Mom hates to hear it, I'm going back in. I'm going to serve my country in the branch of service that I love, and no one, not even the United States Air Force, is gonna stop me.

Me and Uncle Sam...

I'm writing this letter from my barracks
It's Christmas Eve, everything is quiet
It's the only time I don't follow orders
It's the only time that I get to cry

I'm trying to be tough, like my Sergeant
I'm learning how to march and shine my shoes
Six more weeks until graduation
Six more weeks until I see you

Say hello to my sister, give a hug to my Dad
Send a kiss to my Mother, tell that I love her
And to pray when she can, for me...
And Uncle Sam

It's not Christmas when it's Basic Training
You don't think of Santa when you shoot a gun
MRE's don't taste like Mama's turkey
Singing 'Jingle Bells' in a tank ain't no fun

Make sure that Sister helps with dinner
It'd be nice if she covered her tattoo
Tell Dad not to cuss at the table
And to say grace if Mama asks him to

Say hello to my sister, give a hug to my Dad
Send a kiss to my Mother, tell that I love her
And to pray when she can, for me...
And Uncle Sam

That's all for now. I'll be fine, don't worry
I wouldn't have it any other way
I'm proud I get to serve my country
A Soldier fighting for the U.S.A.

Say hello to my sister, give a hug to my Dad
Send a kiss to my Mother, tell that I love her
And to pray when she can, for me...
And Uncle Sam

For me and Uncle Sam...